Artist. Author. Creator & Philosopher.

I think about this a lot. There are so many things I want to do with my life, with my time, my energy, my resources. Like I want to live a certain way and have certain things. An I understand the give and take of the universe. The push and pull of everything. An it's like so do it!!! But this is where the fear comes in. The crippling fear of failure, of embarrassment of not being enough. 

Another thing I think about when it comes to locking in…what does that look like? Like what is the daily movements or thoughts of someone locked in? An I started to think or am currently thinking. It means laser focus, it means a dedication that is unshaken. It means wake up, wash up, and work on your stuff. That means if it ain't about your stuff then it ain't nothing. No tv, no going out, no hanging out, no bullshit time wasting. Every moment is spent working on your health. Which would be spiritual and physical. Because your mental and emotional are targeted toward your dream, your goal. And even when you're not doing that you're resting which is how your mental and emotional health stay healthy. From simple rest, not drinking, not smoking, not going out, not having fun, not watching tv, your relaxation and wind down is sleep. Every waking moment is spent working towards your goal, exercising, meditating, learning…an the learning should be things to help you with your goal. I think when I think of locking in. That's what I need to do. That's how I lock in, that's how I would make 2026 the year that absolutely changes my life in a way that I always wanted to elevate my life.

I'm in a safe space right now in my life. I quit my job at the post office, I got a lil part time job that pays just enough to survive, I still got a little money in my savings account to supplement the difference. I'm driving my dream car, mentally and emotionally I feel completely at peace with my romantic life. Which is non-existent but that's ok because I know that means something major is on the way. It's kinda like the same thing with my career path. I'm not fully in my tech career but I know what to do to get there and I know it's coming. The degree, the certification, the friend in the field. It's all pointing me towards the fact that it'll happen. I just gotta do it, I gotta lock in. 

So for me that means no more YouTube, no watching YouTube, I don't go out, that's not my style. I only go out when I have a partner if that's her thing. I don't hangout with my friend(s), so that's not a distraction. Taking my kids places and doing things with them is not a distraction, plus that's something we do on weekends. I stopped the casual sex and I haven't had a drink in a few days now. So that distraction is gone. I've gotta really lock in. That means focusing on; 

-home labs 

-making YouTube videos

-exercising

-tufting

-school

-my career

The craziest part is I literally have the time. I only work 3 days a week. God has taken away most of the things that would lead me astray. The other things that distract me is more about my self control and discipline, my mastery of my mind. 

Crazy enough, your body, mind, and life can change in a matter of weeks. I'm talking about 30-90 days and BOOM!!! You're in a completely new reality. Your subconscious is completely altered by your daily actions and conscious thoughts. 

I haven't listened to music since I stopped talking to my ex, an that's ok as well, because I need to flood my subconscious with these affirmations as well. I need to become delusional about my

Future. I mean everything I want I am. An on top of my affirmations, controlling as much of my conscious mind as possible is another thing I need to really focus on, paying attention to how my reality is simply my subconscious speaking to me. So I need to pay attention and figure out what is it trying to tell me or teach me. I also need to confront some of my core beliefs, the subconscious ones that I can't see, I know they're there, they peak out occasionally. 

I'm going to try to document everything, if I don't make YouTube videos about this stuff, then I'll try to blog as much of it as possible. But I'm going to go for it. Really just do it, really give it my all. Not through will power either, not through sheer determination. But from humility, from God's grace, mercy, and guidance. I'm going to pray my way through this.